Worst. Nights. Sleep. Ever.

The alarm was set for 4:50am.

I had every intention of being at the gym.

But my restless mind kept me from sleeping.

I tossed & turned while my mind was up creeping.

I saw 2:00. 3:00 and 4:00 too.

4:30 struck and that was when I knew.

I wouldn’t be making it to the gym at five.

But do not worry people, hope is still alive.

I will be working out at my home tonight.

I’m taking this serious now, I won’t give up the fight.

So that is my poem and I feel much better.

Even though I had the worst nights sleep ever.

xoxo.

 

P.S. Yes. I am an idiot 🙂

I can’t visualize myself skinny.

I’m laying in bed. I should be going to sleep seeing how I’m pushing myself to get up at 5am to go to the gym. But I’m laying here realizing that I literally can not visualize what I will look like skinny. Is that weird? I’ve tried before, to see myself as a smaller person. 120lbs gone. I have no clue what that will look like. I often times wonder if when I lose the weight, what if I’m still not happy with my reflection in the mirror. Then what?

Idk. These are the thoughts that run through my head late at night. The night before a workout. When my mind is trying to trick me out of going to the gym…

But I’m going guys. Promise.

Goodnight.

OMG I’m at work and can not stop yawning!

Help!!!!!

 

I shouldn’t even be sleepy right now.

 

Wtf?!